AWWW Snap 08 yall is in the house

2008!!! Less than 7 hours away, and what am I to do. I am not going to make resolutions, cause that ish is always made to be broken. I have never met someone to keep there resolutions. I am excited for the new year though. 2007 was a busy year for me and I feel truly blessed to have been around. but I suppose I should make some type of goals, but really it is nothing new. Be healthy, work on my photography, and be more spiritual. DUH, those are my forever goals. As for this evening I am not doing much, I am gonna go to church, and most likely chill with fam.

The answer to my cardio problems

The one thing I hate about my whole stay fly project is that I cannot seem to get into the whole cardio deal. Ewwww I hate it!!! It's boring being on that boring treadmill for 30-45 minutes and I just cannot get into it. So I had been playing with the idea of getting an MP3 player. I could get a cheap one strictly for the gym, but something had been calling my name to the green iPod nano.
So today I did it and made the purchase. We shall see what happens now, with it being new years eve and all I think all of America will agree with me, when I say its time to get my sexy on.

Fellas, Fellas, Fellas

Is it something in the bath water with these fellas in the world? Seriously the fellas are tripping.
I don’t understand why right away the following questions need to be addressed:
Do you want to be married?
Do you want to have children? If yes, How many?
EXACTLY what are YOU LOOKING FOR in a relationship?
HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT ME RIGHT NOW, YOU NOW ABOUT THIS? ABOUT US?

Hold up, wait a minute!!! Can we just order our drinks first? I feel as if I answer these questions, not to my dates potential the dinner is over, WAY before it has begun. What is up with this? I don’t understand it. Why are people so much in a rush right now to jump into relationships? Why cant we just chill and take things SLOW.
Perhaps it is my fault. Right now, I am not looking to jump into a relationship. I am very much the chick that just wants to focus on my art right now. I can’t have a distraction of a fella trying to push me into a relationship right now. I need to keep my eyes on the final prize and lay out a foundation before ANY of the above questions can be answered. Its not that I wont be in a relationship, I just don’t want to think about such questions right away. IT SCARES ME.

To all of my single fellas, this is going to sound cliché, but you know what, its very true when I say that the right girl IS out there, BUT you may have scared her off with your wild questions. Chill out. It’s going to be ALL GOOD

My "little brother"

So I sort of have a little brother, he's my mothers friend and sometimes in lieu of a babysitter he will come and stay with me. I like him, I don't know much about him, but he's 13 and a nice kid. Whatever. Right now it's 10:01pm and he come shuffling into my office and just sits down by the tv in my office and watches t.v. I don't know what he wants, he does this also when I am in my bedroom minding my own business. I don't know what to do or say to him, I just say hi and continue on what I am doing, he sometimes just stares at me, and its annoying cause I don't know what the hell he wants. It;s weird. I suppose I should just pipe down, he is probably bored and would much rather be at home, he has his PS2 here, and he has been watching movies, I just don't know what I am suppose to do, and I don't like him just hanging around me. Hes a sweet kid, but I guess this is just how people with siblings feel. Especially those that have 13year old brothers.

who would have thought

The night of the Merriwether/Haddon Fight, Toya and I made a quick stop to TresBelle Vintage.I ran into Stephani Supastar. We use to be pretty tight in the 7th Grade. She's a stylist now. It was so random, I just walked into this stylists showroom and there she was. I worked with her sister Serenity who is a model a while ago, but it was good to see her. I like how we both were so nerdy and random back in the day, and now we are both working in "the business" together. I hope that we get the opportunity to work together real soon. Haha it was fun to reminisce about just how easily amused and corny we were, but you know.... What else are we suppose to be in 7th grade. We were corny, amused, secretly fierce!

Now that I am 25 (Part II) I probably should...........

should probably get Brazilian Waxes more often, work out more, dress more polished, really focus on what I want out of life, eat better, cut out negative people for good.- well i already do that but I am on no tolerance for bullshit policy, do more artwork, spend more time with my family, take my investment banker out to lunch (Yes! I really do have an investment banker, Im his youungest client and I have been with him since college) just have a small talk, do more creative projects, have a really dope MySpace page, take more time for myself, be a little bit cleaner, make sure that my teeth are forever on point, not eat so much sweets, eat more vegetables, be a better christian, deny my flesh, keep my godson more, lose weight, buy more clothes, make more money, do more self promotion marketing, go out more and network, change my hair more often, only keep quality boys in my life, know who everyone is around me in my circle and whatever, Stop thinking of Mr. Super Douche, journal, take my vitamins,network more, party more, sleep more, be more, take more risks, stop worrying, trust god and chill out.

The Self Potrait Project: Take 1

I have this idea that I want to try that involves me. I have always had a great respect for self portrait photographers. I admire how they can get such a good, image that actually happens to be in focus. I have ideas, that I only think I can pull off. I just don't see how to communicate it to anyone else, so I am going to give this a shot. As I was exploring how I can pull this off I decided to email one of my favorite artists who photographs herself, Morgan Konn. She is dope, One of her works is, called "Her House, Her Clothes" where she goes to a womans home and photographs herself in that womans clothing. It's wild. At any rate, I emailed Morgan about her process and can you believe that she emailed me back!!! I mean seriously, how often does that happen So with her suggestions in mind, I tried to photograph myself, just as a test.
But did it work, Not really. This is what came of it



I guess I still have some work to do, but I still like these because they are the first pictures I have ever taken of myself. Dammit all self portrait shooters, you make it look so easy!!!! I am excited to kick this project off though and see what comes of it. LOL

I guess I never really explained who I was

I guess it would be good if I just say a little bit about myself. I mean, I am not sure if anyone is even reading this but I guess still, its nice to have a little intro about myself. Well my name is Stephanie Graham. I am a visual artist, Wow! I have never really called myself that before, but in a nut shell that is what I am. I'm a filmmaker and a photographer. I want to start getting into doing small installation videos, so look out for those too. I am not a writer by any means, but films are also time consuming so for the time being I am going to write on this blog. With both my photography and my films, I am interested in youth culture, subcultures, like black suburbia, and rich people, especially rich people, poor people. That's sort of the world I grew up in but my family is not millionaires, at any freakin-rate. So yeah thats me, just a fly chocolate girl out there documenting the familiar

Dinner and Lectures with Michael Grecco

If there is any photographer that I could model my career after right now, I would have to say, Michael Grecco. Well, let's rewind that a little bit because there are tons of photographers whose careers I would love to mimic, but Michael is a new addition to that list. So last night I went to see Michael speak at Studio 415 on Huron. He's on this tour promoting his new project, Naked Ambition: An R-Rated Look at an X-Rated Industry. Naked Ambition is a photography and film project that Michael has been working on for six years.  I was excited to hear Michael speak about his work and absorb all I can during his two-hour lecture. Michael spoke so passionately about his work, and I loved that. He spoke of how he concepts his ideas, how he talks to clients, and his subjects.  I could tell that he may have been annoyed with the low attendance, and he seemed to get annoyed when this woman would blurt out random obvious questions about his technique, but all this foolishness made for an excellent presentation. I loved it! I was so inspired, I made notes about things he would say and random ideas that would come to my head. It was so exciting to feel creative and begin to put things into perspective for myself and where I wanted to go in my photography career. OOOoooooohhhhhHHHHH I am getting goosebumps just thinking of what is to come. Do you ever get those rushes through your body that make you feel success is coming, and everything is going to be good? Well, that's how I feel !!!

After the lecture, I was supposed to have a committee meeting for ASMP; somehow it turned into me having dinner with Michael Grecco!! Along with other superstar photographers Ken Frantz, Benjamin (Benny) Kende, and Robert Potter. It was funny four older white men sitting around talking, and my black ass just sitting there looking pretty and listening, I obviously was the baby of the group, since I haven't been in the business as long, but whatever. I chimed into conversation whenever necessary, but for the most part, this was a night of listening and mental note taking. I caught glimpses from others in the restaurant's, of course, people wondered who was this random, GORGEOUS black woman with all of these white men?? How does she fit with these guys? To the Gawker crew at tables 7 and 32. Go back to your Ravioli special trick and mind your business, I don't have time for such curious glances; I am on my way to the big time LOL!

I just felt so inspired last night to have been in the company of such awesome people, after such an impressive lecture.

Yeah! Go Me!

Now that I am 25

You know it is really time that I get my life together. I mean I should probably go out and buy some nice stationary, sit down and really think about what I am going to do with my life. Today for some reason I feel a little bit scattered, but then again would I be a true artist if I wasn't. I just really need to take some risks with my life, I just feel so stagnant. Which I hate because that is not my personality or the life I want for myself. I have no kids, no REAL responsiblities I guess, My only goals right now are being a good Christian and a dope photographer, with images all over the world. That's it... So we shall see what becomes of that.

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Welcome to my blog. I am going to start something here and just see what happens. I've been wanting to do this blog thing for sometime now, and I'm excited to finally get this party started.